Misery..is over...

After all those shitty time i went thru..its finally over..its weird to end this way..but its a good way..

Im glad i went to cheras to meet Gino..my beloved friend..a brother..almost 2years never see him..finally we meet up and we had a good chat..thanks for the concern about me, gino..i drove back home safely at 1.30am;)

And here i am now..typing this piece of junk blog...wondering what's gonna happen next...life is abit weird..when you know something is wrong yet u continue to do it..thinking that its ok..its ok to be wrong sometimes..

This blog took me two days to complete..weird..

Today is a different day.. that is 17th Feb...the day before i start working again...sigh...after almost 10days break..now i have to drag my butt to office again..damn damn damn!!

Ok..yea btw..yesterday..i met my ex bf...its weird rite?ive been meeting weird ppl recently..my ex..my ex bf's brother...im glad i meet them up..they reminded me of some past happy memories i had when i was with them..i bet outsiders will be wondering why am i so close to this ex and this ex's brother, parents..I can say that no one will really understand what we went thru..:)

During the 3years rship with this fella..he wasnt the kinda nice bf im expecting..partly coz he's too matured and i was too childish that time..despite the fact that he's only a year elder than me..he's way too matured for his age..he wanted more from me..independence..logical sense from me..haha..yea i was the blur blur type back then..

We talked for almost 3hours yesterday..we even break the taboo by talking about what has been kept in our hearts for so so long...the reasons for our breakup and what did he like/dislike about me back then..it felt good to know about this especially after so long..when whatever we talk about doesnt hurt each other anymore..

I admit that i was way too childish back then..we admitted that the timing was wrong..we both wondered if we are still together now..will we be getting married?haha...i doubt that but who knows?:)

When we talked about the past...i realised that i missed the past alot..not that i missed the rship or the person..i just missed the atmosphere and the things that happened back then..each and everything is so memorable...and the time when i was so blur and childish..now i realised that im getting old..

Enough of the past..so what's lying ahead of me?

I got some plannings..its up to me to decide what to follow and wat to scrap:D

I want something else to get me through this,
semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, good-bye,