Sade - By Your Side

I love my life...hiya everyone!! Such a lovely day :)

I havent been blogging since May, yes that was my last blog when I was at my happiest time...and I'm glad I'm still happily in love :)

It has been five months and counting since I have embarked on my new journey with a new person and I'm very happy and thankful to myself for making that decision.

Nobody expect life to be smoothsailing all the time, nor anyone will know what's gonna happen tomorrow. Each and everyday I learn to appreciate what I have, coz I know life is short and I dont get this chance often to be with someone that loves you as much as you love them.

I have fear every now and then, I wanted to cry at times in fear of losing what I have right now. Call me dumb or emotional but that's me ..cant help it..

Ok, enough of being emotional. Let's talk about my new interest : Pole dancing??? :)yes yes

I'm still learning, learning very hard to keep myself up on the pole. Yes, someone said I'm very very egoistic, hence the only thing that pushes me to go to class and torture myself every saturday is my lovely bf ..and his friends whom he happened to tell that I'm taking this class. Which means if I were to give up this dancing too soon, I'm totally buggered, embarrassed and useless. So, NO! I'm SO not gonna give up!!

I think one of the main reasons I'm taking this class is because I want to challenge myself doing something that other's will not dare to do (which makes me special ehem :P). Secondly, I read somewhere that you need to do something that is out of your bf's circle, which means you need to do something out of his interest otherwise what you guys gonna talk about the next time, right? Hmm Good idea..but most importantly I thought guys will be impressed with a gf who does pole dancing, something for fitness and also the aesthetic value of it is priceless :)

Life is so weird..I tend to bump into guys who has financial problem. I didnt realize this till someone told me. But seriously, I'm not the type that ever bother about lending a cent or two to the person who needs it. I can save money, I'm good at it, but at the same time I'm even better at spending it away :P But I'm so afraid that his financial issue was due to me, I make him become like this..seriously? A friend of mine told me it's my fault. I didnt tell them about the latest guy's financial issues. But I'm afraid my bad luck is causing him financial issues. Call me superstitious, I just dont want him to suffer because of me. I dont mind giving a helping hand, if a small help can ease your loved one's burdens, I'm more than willing to do it.

I want him to succeed, but at the same time I'm making him spend alot. This fella always think that I have such a big princess attitude that I must only eat expensive food and go expensive places...haigh its so damn hard to change his mindset that I'm just a normal girl who wants a guy's attention and love :) I dont mind eating at hawker food or stay whatever hotel, I'm just me...tmy..thecute one :)
Dear JY, I know you can do it. Please dont let the financial issues pull you down. I guess I'm too embarrassed to tell you this, I lend you money so that you can repay me using your whole life :p I can see myself walking from a day into forever with you, call me nonsense or think too much, well that is what Pisces always do right? Whenever you said something about my attitude, I heard you and I thought to myself. Why am I not as mad as I usually will? Then I realized that I'm trying to change my bad attitude for you..haha...Each and everytime u see me being quiet for a second or two, just leave me alone..I will be fine..if I dont, well you have to write some sorry notes to me again I guess :)

I love you, thanks for being there for me. Even if it wont last, this post will mark a place in my heart forever.

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me
ha ah ah ah ah ah

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me

when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
i will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry
i am here to dry your eyes
and in no time
you'll be fine

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think id leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me
ha ah ah ah ah ah

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
oh when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby