A month plus has passed...

I didnt reply sms.

I didnt answer calls.

I didnt update my Facebook.


I needed the time to get over things. I needed to stop being in touch, coz being in touch means dwelling in the past. Call me useless but I just cant do that, I wont be able to move on if I still be in touch.

Yet, I still think about him sometimes.

Although it doesnt mean anything anymore, or I dont mean anything to anyone anymore, it is just memories that you cant forget. It will still be there, never to be forgotten.

I guess I will meet/call/sms/email him when I'm ready.

I hope one day we can meet again and smile at each other. :)

Take care bee.

It's easier to be..me..

Suddenly fell in love with this song from Lifehouse.."Easier to be" ...sometimes what someone said does affect you in a way..like how someone asked you to listen to songs from this band..I somehow see the reason why this group is worth recommending to friends and family :D Their songs are cool..

Of all days..my eyes are swollen ..damn it..Does it have to happen tonight when I'm supposed to go clubbing and show my assets(non existent ones).. now i have to depend on the magic of makeups..pls..perk me up!!

Love stoned..finally stoned..

Hello everyone...again I'm back..im now sitting at home enjoying my CNY holidays..seems fun eh?

I just came back from Bangkok..again ...this round is the most damaging holidays ..i spent over 2k shopping there..inclusive of airtickets and accomodations..I tailor-made some good shirts for myself there..RM80bucks for one shirt..spent alot of bucks on shopping for dresses and clothes..everything is so cheap there! Its almost a shopping haven :) Imagine those cute wooden bangles cost only RM 10 for three...2 fashion neck chains cost only RM 12..U wont get it in Malaysia for that price definitely..

Ok enough about Bangkok..thats not my real intention of bloggin here today...

Im having abit of headache here..i think its dehydration..I didnt drink enough water last nite and today I tink ..and most probably its because i didnt sleep too well last nite and the nite before...

What a long day I had today..went swimming at 7.30am...then went on a day trip to God knows where...supposed to go Old Klang Road ended up at Ampang Point eating Korean Bibim Bhab Stone Rice :D Then went to Selayang to do eyebrow threading..reached home 2.30pm..slept for 3 hours and woke up at 5.30pm..That's what you call an adventure I guess ;)

I fancy some new songs lately..this Secondhand Serenade Fall for you and Beyonce's If I Were A Boy ...

Today my friend almost cried (again) when she was talking about her ex bf...sighz...I felt sad for her when I put myself in her shoes..I'm imagining...what will happen when I lose someone that I trusted so much..not for anything but for some stupid infatuation...I don't know what I'll do...I bet I wont be as strong as her..

Sometimes I rather be single than to face all these relationship thingies..You'll never know what's lying ahead of you, you wont know whether your bf/gf is cheating behind your back etc etc..

When you get the romantic feelings you wanted..you complained that you needed more space..

When you have the assurance in a relationship , you're afraid you will reach the end of it..

Hmm..how can I be complaining when I'm one of the bad ones?

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the coreBut hold your breath

Because tonight will be the nightThat I will fall for you over againDon't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breathBecause tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over againDon't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the nightThat I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

**Geri, can't wait for our Perhentian Island trip this March!!

Can't actually remember when was the last blog..didn't intend to review back what was written in the old posts too..

Hello hey everyone..wassup?(sounds so lame saying this but its the best pickup line in blogs, for me at least:P)

Been there done that..its 2010 and ive done and went thru alot..not that much really ..but enough to make me fell, being rolled over and around and finally, get up on my feet again :D..

OK OK..i did went thru my old posts ..just to get back the feel of blogging..im feeling abit rusty over here,people..pls forgive me..

Ok..lets talk about..work..

Work sucks..really it does...its gettin worse and worse..at the moment I'm sort of learning new stuff which I'm supposed to take over around February but I'm still stuck with my current task alot..which makes it hard for me to work for both sides..just when i wanna concentrate on the new task..I'm pulled back by the current task ..and this fella whom I'm takin over her job talks like my mom or nanny.." MEIYEE!! MEIYEE this one is wrong!" aiyo kadavelei!(means oh my god..right?)

And this new boss, new environment is making my office more and more stressful each and everyday..procedures and procedures..making my work revolves around double checking stuffs...re-check and re-check..I just cant take it anymore! Urgh!!!!!!! I need a change!!

I'm so envious when I heard this friend of mine(Geri) is checking out uni's in US , Aussie UK...I wish i can go and change my life abit at least..not being stuck here for nothing..anyway all the best gal! I'll visit you when ur there!:)

I'm still thinking..wat can i do to change my life? I'm taking up latin dancing which is damn freaky hard..I definitely have 3left legs..my swimming has slowed down ..a lot..and I have stopped yoga for a month plus..oh no! I'm not an athlete anymore! (drama betul!) :P

Geri suggested me taking French culinary classes in Taylors..hmm..Im considering :)

And you ppl..I've curled my hair..yes C-U-R-L!

Its damn fcuking dry..and well..it looks good minus the dry part..and the over-blonde color..

I admit that I'm very very much affected by what ppl tell me/how ppl view me/their comments..There are basically two parties now - one hated my hair..the other luv my new hairdo..I myself have split personality sometimes..today it looks good tmr its shitty...my hair is just as unpredictable as me :(

Im now afraid to go swimming..my already damn spoilt hair..I dont know how they gonna fare in chlorine water tmr...Oh good lord pls save my hair: ( Tmr I'll make sure i will put the whole bottle of conditioner onto my hair before dipping into the pool..

I have given this curl jinx hair a try..if you (hair) fail me, i promise to cut YOU short and straighten you in 6 months time! Scary o not ?:P

Sigh..still another 6months to bear with this hair..god pls gimme the strength :(

Anyway..with this hair..apparently guys wont look my way..its a norm that guys like gals with straight and playable hair..

men : curly hair? no thanks !

I need to wake up..to embrace 2010..the new year...new life.

The worst day ever...worst week ever..having to work from Monday to Sunday is horrid..enough said.

Ok..what to talk about today? My coll asked me to talk about that MC bitch again today..but i dun feel like it..sorry :P

Does anyone know I'm finally a LifeGuard? Haha..sounds unbelievable right?Yea even i myself cant believe it.. My cert and badge is coming soon...hmm..

But this cert and badge has certainly make me gave up my most precious asset...sigh..my fair skin..Ok la..i wasnt that fair after all..but now im definitely tanned..Yet I kinda like it:D

My back is perfectly tanned and lately I have the tendency to wear bareback like halterneck top and spaghetti strap..Dont blame me for being sexy ok?Its the global warming effect:P

My drinking habit has gone abit worse lately..Not that im drinking more often..But I tend to drink to de-stress..hmm..no good..

Anyway..I feel like getting a condo myself suddenly..I tink those ppl I know who bought a condo themselves really get me into thinking ...I envy their life ; having their own houses , can run around the house naked, listen to loud music...drink red wine in dim-litted room...watch tv in sexy lingerie..can ask frens to come up for stay over..can swim in the condo pool whenever i want to .. and even do some exercise in the gym..wow..sounds so great!! :D

Ok ..im getting abit carried away..So that's my dream which wont come true at the moment..sigh..that particular someone wanted a landed house..Why oh Why...sigh..Why do I have to be stuck in this...

I think im too affected by ppl around me who bought themselves a condo at KL Sentral and Jalan Duta..sigh..The more i talk about it the sadder I feel..

Yo..what a day..

I came back early from work today and had a short nap after dinner just now. I guess I was too tired from yoga yesterday and swimming the day before. Wow! I feel that I sounded like an athlete
while I'm not :P

Okay. What to type about this time?Hmm..

I started losing hair again, or was it just psychology? I felt that my right side of the head is thinning now. Oh I don't know and I don't care! But I just applied some tonic to my scalp :P Well, let's just hope that works on me now.

I feel so lame, so lame that I'm trying to type something out when I cant seem to concentrate on anything.

I feel that I have something to say, but I don't know how to put into words..

Ok..let's just talk about some stupid woman in office..

This woman..the name is M sis..we call her M che or MC aka (Muk Chui) ..we basically labelled her as the stupidest person on earth after G CLK(apparently another person that we hated in office)..

Well..this woman...she talks like a bird...NO not the type that you thought can hum a nice song, but she can definitely talk some sheet out of nowhere in this planet of earth..Just imagine her chirpy voice saying bad words to you like **TNS...Niamah!! ** and so forth and so on..and the next minute she can smile at you and say hello..isnt that creepy?

I once stood behind her back..waiting for her to finish her call on the phone..She turned to her back and stared at me..and guess what? She told my boss I was disturbing her by standing at the back of her. Haha!! Cool... So, I was disturbing the flow of air by standing behind her that she cant breathe and chirp??

She'll make a scene out of nothing and pretends nothing happened the next day..sucha dumass..

And the latest scene she made was horribly dumb..She wanted a report to be generated from this system called OPIGS...to enlist all the deals/transactions done with offshore companies..in which we NEVER have done at all! Fine, since the auditor is requesting for such reports to proof that we have never had sucha deal before and ever (we are not suppose to have sucha deal with offshore companies..yea lame..), my IT fren is more than willing to help you to create sheetass report, trust me he does.

So there my fren goes, trying to help her out by creating such report. But since we do not have of these trades, the report will return as NIL results no matter how many million times we tried to run it , correct? So, how to prove that this report is running properly instead of simply returning empty results? Yes, by keying in some dummy deals to offshore companies, then we can see that " Oh, this report is running correctly!"

AND what this sheetass said to my fren? "YOU WANT ME TO SIMPLY KEY IN DEALS?? WHY CANT U JUST CREATE THE DUMB REPORT??!!"

Trust me..my friend tried to explain to her gently but her goddamn ears just cant seem to listen..God knows why she want to make herself look so dumb and stupid..oh God pls save this woman..and in the end she slammed the phone down when ppl cant get what kinda dumass sheet she's trying to tell..

All of us got asses..and she just got a lame and dumb one..