What a day..

Gosh I just realised that I havent been blogging for a freaking long time and now I'm lost of words..I cant think of what to type here. Even my english feels wrong here...urghh..I need to brush up my grammar and vocabs definitely..

Ok whats up with tonite..I went to this place/club called The Market Place at Jalan Yap Kwan Seng..there was this event called Fashionista but that's definitely not the main reason I was there..I was there to meet someone from long long time ago..forbidden to see for sucha long time..and yeap..he's the bee guy..

Well apparently he has this company with his bro and sis in law..called gizmo and they are sourcing out deejays to clubs and this is their first project,I think..I thought I can just go there to show some sort of support and of coz, to see how he has been ;)

When I first stepped in there,my heart was racing when I saw the glimpse of him..and they asked us to fill up a form for some free membership for dunnowhat club. My hand was literally shaking when I was trying to fill in the form! I felt so embarrassed but thank god no one saw me trembling away..phew..

He came to see Geraldine and I..said hi and asked the normal hi bye thingie..I felt bad coz I cant really looked at him and say anything. My friend did most of the talking and I'm so thankful she was there. Most of the time she was doing the talking while I'm still the shy gal..whats wrong with me? Is it them that I'm shy/afraid of or its my problem with people? I think its them la..hehe :P

I know he was really being nice to us by stopping to check us out from time to time..I looked at him and I cant help thinking how things would be if we didnt break up..my only guess? It will be worse :)

Looking at him working so hard for this business and doing so much of marketing, I know that we are just worlds apart. I liked to eat expensive dinner and spend time going out shopping or just walking inside the mall to kill time..besides the fact that I'm a shy person and hardly talks..He's a tennis coach, a dealer in office, a filial son and now a businessman? I dont think he can handle a baby like me :D It is just a bad dream that wont come true..

I thank god that we didnt continue this relationship but a month seems too short isn't it? Felt bad for breaking mine and geraldine's record (her shortest relationship was 3months :P)

Forgive me for still feeling weird after seeing him, I cant help it. But I'm happy that I went to see him tonight, at least it marked a new beginning for me, to move on ;)

I need to start my plan to become a gym freak, yes gym freak. I feel so good doing so much of workout,dont ask me why. I just like to sweat and I feel good seeing my muscle building :D

People ask me again and again...ur so skinny, why do u still want to exercise? Well, first of all, I want to looked better rather being super skinny..another thing is I cant be waiting till I'm 40 or after I gave birth then only I start to think about keeping fit right?

My aim, Jessica Biel!! God I want to look like her! :D

Some ppl if not worth mentioning, you dont have to mention them anywhere. There are really some ppl who walked into your life, messed things up, and left you drained out of air. But when you managed to straighten things out and move on, thats when you know you have grown stronger ;)

Thanks geri for the good company tonight. thanks everyone who's reading this blog too, if any ;)

Yep..It's been 4months ...so soon its October again..yet life is still the same kinda sheetiness, and still the same kinda craziness and poverty.

My life is still full of crap, short of money and lots of uncertainties..

Went for an interview..I guess I have the hope but I'm thinking twice..is working till 7 everyday my kinda dream job? Lots of claims of course,monies monies monies..Should I take the plunge?

I saw my ex family photos; he, his wife and the son..I felt so relieved and ...envious seeing their happy family..I cant believe someone who dumped me so long back then can be leading sucha good life right now..I felt so..useless. Everyone has moved on and what about me? Still nowhere in the middle..sigh

Life should be great, but why is mine full of crap? Am I thinking too much when I should just go with the flow?

Im 27 and I felt like crap.

A month plus has passed...

I didnt reply sms.

I didnt answer calls.

I didnt update my Facebook.


I needed the time to get over things. I needed to stop being in touch, coz being in touch means dwelling in the past. Call me useless but I just cant do that, I wont be able to move on if I still be in touch.

Yet, I still think about him sometimes.

Although it doesnt mean anything anymore, or I dont mean anything to anyone anymore, it is just memories that you cant forget. It will still be there, never to be forgotten.

I guess I will meet/call/sms/email him when I'm ready.

I hope one day we can meet again and smile at each other. :)

Take care bee.

It's easier to be..me..

Suddenly fell in love with this song from Lifehouse.."Easier to be" ...sometimes what someone said does affect you in a way..like how someone asked you to listen to songs from this band..I somehow see the reason why this group is worth recommending to friends and family :D Their songs are cool..

Of all days..my eyes are swollen ..damn it..Does it have to happen tonight when I'm supposed to go clubbing and show my assets(non existent ones).. now i have to depend on the magic of makeups..pls..perk me up!!

Love stoned..finally stoned..

Hello everyone...again I'm back..im now sitting at home enjoying my CNY holidays..seems fun eh?

I just came back from Bangkok..again ...this round is the most damaging holidays ..i spent over 2k shopping there..inclusive of airtickets and accomodations..I tailor-made some good shirts for myself there..RM80bucks for one shirt..spent alot of bucks on shopping for dresses and clothes..everything is so cheap there! Its almost a shopping haven :) Imagine those cute wooden bangles cost only RM 10 for three...2 fashion neck chains cost only RM 12..U wont get it in Malaysia for that price definitely..

Ok enough about Bangkok..thats not my real intention of bloggin here today...

Im having abit of headache here..i think its dehydration..I didnt drink enough water last nite and today I tink ..and most probably its because i didnt sleep too well last nite and the nite before...

What a long day I had today..went swimming at 7.30am...then went on a day trip to God knows where...supposed to go Old Klang Road ended up at Ampang Point eating Korean Bibim Bhab Stone Rice :D Then went to Selayang to do eyebrow threading..reached home 2.30pm..slept for 3 hours and woke up at 5.30pm..That's what you call an adventure I guess ;)

I fancy some new songs lately..this Secondhand Serenade Fall for you and Beyonce's If I Were A Boy ...

Today my friend almost cried (again) when she was talking about her ex bf...sighz...I felt sad for her when I put myself in her shoes..I'm imagining...what will happen when I lose someone that I trusted so much..not for anything but for some stupid infatuation...I don't know what I'll do...I bet I wont be as strong as her..

Sometimes I rather be single than to face all these relationship thingies..You'll never know what's lying ahead of you, you wont know whether your bf/gf is cheating behind your back etc etc..

When you get the romantic feelings you wanted..you complained that you needed more space..

When you have the assurance in a relationship , you're afraid you will reach the end of it..

Hmm..how can I be complaining when I'm one of the bad ones?

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the coreBut hold your breath

Because tonight will be the nightThat I will fall for you over againDon't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breathBecause tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over againDon't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the nightThat I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

**Geri, can't wait for our Perhentian Island trip this March!!

Can't actually remember when was the last blog..didn't intend to review back what was written in the old posts too..

Hello hey everyone..wassup?(sounds so lame saying this but its the best pickup line in blogs, for me at least:P)

Been there done that..its 2010 and ive done and went thru alot..not that much really ..but enough to make me fell, being rolled over and around and finally, get up on my feet again :D..

OK OK..i did went thru my old posts ..just to get back the feel of blogging..im feeling abit rusty over here,people..pls forgive me..

Ok..lets talk about..work..

Work sucks..really it does...its gettin worse and worse..at the moment I'm sort of learning new stuff which I'm supposed to take over around February but I'm still stuck with my current task alot..which makes it hard for me to work for both sides..just when i wanna concentrate on the new task..I'm pulled back by the current task ..and this fella whom I'm takin over her job talks like my mom or nanny.." MEIYEE!! MEIYEE this one is wrong!" aiyo kadavelei!(means oh my god..right?)

And this new boss, new environment is making my office more and more stressful each and everyday..procedures and procedures..making my work revolves around double checking stuffs...re-check and re-check..I just cant take it anymore! Urgh!!!!!!! I need a change!!

I'm so envious when I heard this friend of mine(Geri) is checking out uni's in US , Aussie UK...I wish i can go and change my life abit at least..not being stuck here for nothing..anyway all the best gal! I'll visit you when ur there!:)

I'm still thinking..wat can i do to change my life? I'm taking up latin dancing which is damn freaky hard..I definitely have 3left legs..my swimming has slowed down ..a lot..and I have stopped yoga for a month plus..oh no! I'm not an athlete anymore! (drama betul!) :P

Geri suggested me taking French culinary classes in Taylors..hmm..Im considering :)

And you ppl..I've curled my hair..yes C-U-R-L!

Its damn fcuking dry..and well..it looks good minus the dry part..and the over-blonde color..

I admit that I'm very very much affected by what ppl tell me/how ppl view me/their comments..There are basically two parties now - one hated my hair..the other luv my new hairdo..I myself have split personality sometimes..today it looks good tmr its shitty...my hair is just as unpredictable as me :(

Im now afraid to go swimming..my already damn spoilt hair..I dont know how they gonna fare in chlorine water tmr...Oh good lord pls save my hair: ( Tmr I'll make sure i will put the whole bottle of conditioner onto my hair before dipping into the pool..

I have given this curl jinx hair a try..if you (hair) fail me, i promise to cut YOU short and straighten you in 6 months time! Scary o not ?:P

Sigh..still another 6months to bear with this hair..god pls gimme the strength :(

Anyway..with this hair..apparently guys wont look my way..its a norm that guys like gals with straight and playable hair..

men : curly hair? no thanks !

I need to wake up..to embrace 2010..the new year...new life.