What a day..

Gosh I just realised that I havent been blogging for a freaking long time and now I'm lost of words..I cant think of what to type here. Even my english feels wrong here...urghh..I need to brush up my grammar and vocabs definitely..

Ok whats up with tonite..I went to this place/club called The Market Place at Jalan Yap Kwan Seng..there was this event called Fashionista but that's definitely not the main reason I was there..I was there to meet someone from long long time ago..forbidden to see for sucha long time..and yeap..he's the bee guy..

Well apparently he has this company with his bro and sis in law..called gizmo and they are sourcing out deejays to clubs and this is their first project,I think..I thought I can just go there to show some sort of support and of coz, to see how he has been ;)

When I first stepped in there,my heart was racing when I saw the glimpse of him..and they asked us to fill up a form for some free membership for dunnowhat club. My hand was literally shaking when I was trying to fill in the form! I felt so embarrassed but thank god no one saw me trembling away..phew..

He came to see Geraldine and I..said hi and asked the normal hi bye thingie..I felt bad coz I cant really looked at him and say anything. My friend did most of the talking and I'm so thankful she was there. Most of the time she was doing the talking while I'm still the shy gal..whats wrong with me? Is it them that I'm shy/afraid of or its my problem with people? I think its them la..hehe :P

I know he was really being nice to us by stopping to check us out from time to time..I looked at him and I cant help thinking how things would be if we didnt break up..my only guess? It will be worse :)

Looking at him working so hard for this business and doing so much of marketing, I know that we are just worlds apart. I liked to eat expensive dinner and spend time going out shopping or just walking inside the mall to kill time..besides the fact that I'm a shy person and hardly talks..He's a tennis coach, a dealer in office, a filial son and now a businessman? I dont think he can handle a baby like me :D It is just a bad dream that wont come true..

I thank god that we didnt continue this relationship but a month seems too short isn't it? Felt bad for breaking mine and geraldine's record (her shortest relationship was 3months :P)

Forgive me for still feeling weird after seeing him, I cant help it. But I'm happy that I went to see him tonight, at least it marked a new beginning for me, to move on ;)

I need to start my plan to become a gym freak, yes gym freak. I feel so good doing so much of workout,dont ask me why. I just like to sweat and I feel good seeing my muscle building :D

People ask me again and again...ur so skinny, why do u still want to exercise? Well, first of all, I want to looked better rather being super skinny..another thing is I cant be waiting till I'm 40 or after I gave birth then only I start to think about keeping fit right?

My aim, Jessica Biel!! God I want to look like her! :D

Some ppl if not worth mentioning, you dont have to mention them anywhere. There are really some ppl who walked into your life, messed things up, and left you drained out of air. But when you managed to straighten things out and move on, thats when you know you have grown stronger ;)

Thanks geri for the good company tonight. thanks everyone who's reading this blog too, if any ;)