I find myself extremely well...i can still laugh..i can still smile..i can still feel happy..but when im alone..i hear myself talking..i hear pain..i hear cry...i hear my soul crying...ive never thought i would feel this way...

I walked on the road without lookin right and left...yet i survived...painkillers make me feel nothing..my coll slapped me today.. and i laughed....so wat are the options?

Whats wrong?why the death sentence?why?I kept being reminded of hw good it used to be..All of a sudden i was slapped with the truth that its over...

ITS OVER, TMY, DO YOU GET IT?

Give me a few slaps mayb i will stop crying, mayb i will wake up and walk like a living person again...it seems i kept leaving my soul at home when i go to work nowadays..

Kill me...

I hate the days im dragging my arse thru it..its too unbearable..ive cried too many times..almost anything can trigger my tears...i hate it..i hate myself for being weak...i hate myself for not being able to pick myself up...i hate it...

pls..dun let me live..i took two tablets of painkillers when i dont need it...shud i take more?

Haha..wat a topic ive gotten myself..shortlived happiness..its some happiness that wont stay for long..i'd prefer some long - lasting happiness..

alrite...oh yea..today ive just met an old fren of mine..the all-time cutie hoodliang..he;s doin great i suppose..as goodlooking as ever...and building a very strong career path..i always wonder what am i doing in this company with no great 5years ahead plan..sigh..well..i dont really bother what ppl say..hw my this this coursemate has become product manager or some earning few grands..perhaps im just a little woman..wasnt expecting too much from this boring life..

Life..wats in store for me? I want to become pretty and attractive:P hah...wat a shallow thinking..

take care those ppl who read this..

Today...i dont know wat to write about here...i js felt i did something so wrong tat ppl i know cant forgive me for..some even called me a twofaced snake (or wat so ever kinda bad name that is)..

Im officially APOLOGIZING TO THE PUBLIC FOR DOING STH SO DARN FCUKING WRONG...im sorry...i hope things will get better and i will learn whole lot more frm this dumas experience..

Im sorry everyone for letting you guys down..so so sorry....