No sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

Its a lovely song..i heard it over CSI..i think those ppl who's working on looking for songs to play in different episodes in CSI and House are just amazing...they managed to find songs which are touching yet matched the scenario so perfectly...There's a webpage that compiles all the CSI theme songs' names.. http://csimiamiwiki.cbs.com/page/CSI+Music:+Season+5?t=anon

Sigh..im still feeling and looking tired..despite the fact that ive been going back early recently..still...i either sleep late going online..or cant seem to have a good sleep...sigh..whats wrong with me..

Hello and Good Evening...below is the menu for tonight's dinner

3 sticks of clam FatMan Steamboat lok lok

2 sticks of Sea algae FatMan Steamboat lok lok

1 stick of Brown Cuttlefish FatMan Steamboat lok lok

2 bowls of SzeChuan Soup

1 bowl of rice

Ginger Wine Chicken and Vegetables

1 bowl of Penang Asam Laksa car-driven from Penang

1 glass of Lo Han Guo Herbal Drink

Wow wow..that was my dinner for the day..can you believe it? oh my god..
Anyway ..i met my best gal fren at pasar malam today while i was feasting down my delicious lok lok at FatMan Steamboat with their supreme hot chilli sauce..my lips were all red,i was panting and my nose was running..but its all worth it to lose abit of my elegance and manners to slurp lok lok by the road side ..its so so yummy..hmmmmmmmmmm

Ok ok ..enough of the food i slurp down today..done..dun wanna talk about any other stuff..phew!

Goodnite!!

Another lovely song from Paolo Nutini ...Rewind..

Pickin up the pieces
Of the wreck you went and left
And i'm dealing with dilemmas
In my not-so-stressful life
And i'm drinking stronger spirits
I made my home here on the floor
And i'm losing all ambition
I'm a ghost

And i'm going all out
And i'm thinking you're just as bad

No sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind

Oh remember at 16
Oh the crazy drunken night we had
When i kissed you in the hallway
Then i took you straight to bed

Well 2 years on
And i'm still that same boy i was

No sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

No sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

You might blame it on me
But you persisted that we fold
Wiped your hands of me
And said you needed more, more, more

And i'm not sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

And i'm not sleeping at night
But i'm going from bar to bar
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind
Why can't we just rewind oh

Wo woah woah woah
Wo woah woah woah
Wo wo woah
Can't we just rewind

Hey hey...

What a long day..and long time...Ive been offline for few days that seems like years to me..phew...i really cant believe im sucha internet freak..literally cant live without it..

So what do i have to say on a tiring day like today?

I slept around 2am after some awful concoction of Absolut vodka Vanilia and tonic..and woke up at 7am for swimming till 10am..din sleep till now..goddamn..and now im blogging again..wth...im sucha freak..and tmr i will complain abt being sleepy in office..sheet

I just typed some stupid msn offline msgs to someone who doesnt seem to be replying my msn mgs...ooops i just got a call frm him saying that his PC is turned on while he's away ..that explains the online status..phew!

Anyway...life is short..wth..what im typing..

Misery..is over...

After all those shitty time i went thru..its finally over..its weird to end this way..but its a good way..

Im glad i went to cheras to meet Gino..my beloved friend..a brother..almost 2years never see him..finally we meet up and we had a good chat..thanks for the concern about me, gino..i drove back home safely at 1.30am;)

And here i am now..typing this piece of junk blog...wondering what's gonna happen next...life is abit weird..when you know something is wrong yet u continue to do it..thinking that its ok..its ok to be wrong sometimes..

This blog took me two days to complete..weird..

Today is a different day.. that is 17th Feb...the day before i start working again...sigh...after almost 10days break..now i have to drag my butt to office again..damn damn damn!!

Ok..yea btw..yesterday..i met my ex bf...its weird rite?ive been meeting weird ppl recently..my ex..my ex bf's brother...im glad i meet them up..they reminded me of some past happy memories i had when i was with them..i bet outsiders will be wondering why am i so close to this ex and this ex's brother, parents..I can say that no one will really understand what we went thru..:)

During the 3years rship with this fella..he wasnt the kinda nice bf im expecting..partly coz he's too matured and i was too childish that time..despite the fact that he's only a year elder than me..he's way too matured for his age..he wanted more from me..independence..logical sense from me..haha..yea i was the blur blur type back then..

We talked for almost 3hours yesterday..we even break the taboo by talking about what has been kept in our hearts for so so long...the reasons for our breakup and what did he like/dislike about me back then..it felt good to know about this especially after so long..when whatever we talk about doesnt hurt each other anymore..

I admit that i was way too childish back then..we admitted that the timing was wrong..we both wondered if we are still together now..will we be getting married?haha...i doubt that but who knows?:)

When we talked about the past...i realised that i missed the past alot..not that i missed the rship or the person..i just missed the atmosphere and the things that happened back then..each and everything is so memorable...and the time when i was so blur and childish..now i realised that im getting old..

Enough of the past..so what's lying ahead of me?

I got some plannings..its up to me to decide what to follow and wat to scrap:D

I want something else to get me through this,
semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, good-bye,

Delicate by Damien Rice..a very nice song that's my fave at the moment

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

Im sorry edison ...

I feel bad for him and the rest of the ppl involved..its so sad to see ppl's privacy being invaded and photos being used against them..sigh..im not sure who to be blamed in this..its definitely wrongful to save the photos from the laptop and distribute it over the net...but what i dont understand is that why they wanna take such photos and keep them in the laptop? sigh..well theres nothing they can do to undo the mistake now..its the past anyway..now its the time to face the brutal truth..

This 2008 year is not really a good year for everyone...its bad for me and edison at least...he and i got something not so good being revealed...haha..wat a coincidence..me and my fave cute idol..sigh..

Ok...now things are still not so over for him ...and for me too..

Sigh...its getting worse..i cant take this anymore...

Everyday im thinking about how to face the day...ppl is fine..ppl is cool..but im not.. im not cool at all..its actually so hard to be cool..i try and im still learning..

I hope i have the strength..pls gimme the strength to face myself and the life ahead of me...i know there wont be anything ahead of us..no future no way its gonna work out..i just dun wan to end anything due to anyone..i wan to end things that wont work out for myself..i wanna do something for myself instead of for anyone..really..

Well..now u noe it wont work out...why bother continuing it?

Im going bonkers!!!

I cant believe that i cannot resist from going online and typing some blog every night despite the fact that I'm damn sleepy and damn tired from work...I left office at 9.15pm...talking about being productive at work..sheet...

Ok ok...i will type something here before i retire to bed..

I will be on leave from 11th Feb to 15th Feb..will be heading to Penang..my fave place for 2days..could be stopping at Langkawi for a day or two..and be back in KL on Monday i suppose..hmm..

And guess what??Im getting a tattoo!! Yoohoo...Woohoo!!

Yes...overreacted on that one..but i seriously hope it will look good on me...cant wait to get it on nex week...;)practically cant wait to reveal the ehem part to the world..in my super super low levis jeans...wahhh...**drooling**

Happy chinese New Year everyone...may all ur life be prosperous and be blessed with lotsa lotsa money;)

Hmm..after all this sufferring im goin thru...i mean sufferring that i WENT thru...finally im getting back this friend..

Well..maybe i shouldnt mention this as a sufferring..Its a phase in life that im going thru..and there are lots more in this teeny weeny life to go on...

I believe each person you know teaches you different things in life... this person teaches you to be patient...this person teaches you the meaning of love..and this person teaches you forgiveness..like my ex...i used to hate him alot..but now i learnt how to forgive :P weird but true..

This particular friend i met in life is weird..we have nothing in common...well besides we both have the same passion for drinking...i hardly drink as much as him...and ppl drink with friends whereas i usually drink with very much close friends or even alone..but i hardly drink alone..i just realised that i cannot drink alone..i feel..silly..and lonely..like you're so pathetic and you're drinking alone to lure guys to dupe you...hahaha...too much of a movie plot huh?

Im so bored..i feel tat i have nothing to do in life..so aimless..

I still remembered the time where i just knew that Blaze has left two years ago at the time i called him...i feel aimless..totally aimless..like you know..what the hell am i still walking around when he's already gone? Why did he had to go?Why him? WHy not me?

Come to think of it..its just a phase in life..isnt it?
Life goes on..

OMG...My kimchi noodle is hot..i added some of my kimchi into my ShinRamyun noodle..and now i kept panting like my patrick...while listening to my WMA player playing Sex Bomb...what a song..haha..

I feel so bored and lonely at home..feel like doing something more like going out..but i got more to do at home than that..cleaning up my room..washing those clothes...and my car..hmm..my poor car needs a good bath since its aircon is now working..it's a reward for him ;) From now on he can bring me places..rather than letting me down and wet under the damn freaking hot sun...

So here i am..listening to my playlist of noisy songs..but somehow i feel embarassed with the songs in my WMA player...all those songs seems outdated..but thats me...i dont mind old songs..in fact old songs occupy say 80% of the songs in my PC...seems weird that a young lady like me love old songs huh? I personally like Alan Tam and Teresa Teng songs..I can sing those songs very well..oops i forgotten that many have known that I can sing..(remember the song i sent to someone's bf? i bet it has been circulated like hot flyers:P)

I have this tendency to send ppl my voice of singing some songs...i like singing in bathroom but i wish i can sing in public..with much confidence...or even dance...i like performing..pls dun let me repeat myself..and i know its not gonna happen in near future...but time is running out..what can i do?

Im suddenly into burning cds to play in the car again..for the fact that my car's radio antenna is broken..meaning the player in my car can only play cds..sigh..

Anyone heard of Me So Horny? Its a funny song..not sexy...just very very foxy..haha...OOps..its playing Girlfriend by Avril..i hope ppl dun think im listening to this song due to that fella..gosh that will be so absurd to accuse me that way..especially when ppl said they needed time alone..seems like ive taken all the blame and here i am..aint got nothing in hand..great..

Ive been sitting at home during weekends...sigh..feel so bored..my bf works like a dog everyday..he cant seem to spend an hour with me to get him CNY clothes...weird isnt it? Mayb i shud tell him that im seeing someone..that might scared him a little...

One of my real good pet brother said since im the flirtatious type ( You can tell from my BatZhi..i have lots of Peach blossoms...) I might as well be single again..then i dont have guilts that will eat me when i hang out with other guys..well..its not easy to do that,my dear brother..

Ah there you go! I love this Piece of Me song by Britney..although she's mad like the woman from level 4...but the song sounds so cool..very pole-dancing like...i feel like taking up pole dancing..I know its not easy to master it..especially when this kinda dance u cant really practise anywhere..i heard that they will bring you those clubs or pubs to practise...besides showing what u have learned to the public..haha..just imagine all my colleagues are there to watch me in awe ( or digust)...guys might think " eh she's hot" and gals " she's a bitch "...well..i dont really care anymore..this kinda naming-me game doesnt bother me much anymore..

I feel like taking up gym ...but i only have time on the weekends..Its hard to maintain a good routine of visiting the gym and its worse if its damn far from your home or office..I wish they are gonna open one soon near my office..but that means i will see alot of my colls...eww..not good also..hmmm

Ok..i have talked abit too much and its time to clean up...im done here..