**You don't miss your water till the well runs dry**

Was listening to that song till i realised that Ive not blogged for quite sometime..someone is asking (in dire) to read my blog..haha..kewl!!(means cool in sign language :P)

Ok..today is a boring day..extremely boring day..i went to some 2hrs short training in Menara Axis..its for my new business prospect..a business prospect that i hope can change my career path..especially my income figure...from a low, poverty-like income to OK level of income..hmm..i need that extra cash to support my shoppings..been shopping like mad lately..not really that mad la..but it just that..cant control myself when i see nice stuff like shoes..or clothings..

But come to think of it..I dont really shop for expensive stuff..like how i sounded when i said that ** i shopped like mad** remark..but ..I just bought a pair of shoes..yet another pair yes:P i just love buying shoes lately..ceh..not as if my shoes gonna be like RM100 per pair what..i wont buy shoes above 60bucks usually..even above 50bucks hardly happened to me :P

Ok ..enough about shoes..and clothings? I always and always shopped at FOS for their simple yet chic cheapo t-shirts..RM 20bucks for two piece thingie..its cheap and nice enough to wear to walk around midvalley and one u..might not be cool enuf for friday nite outings though;)

Anyway..great news! Im goin to singapore very very soon..to shop till I drop..thats y im curbing myself from shopping that much in KL..coz i know things are gonna be drop dead cheap over there..or thats what i heard from other ppl...i just cant wait to join the shopping hype there..hmm..definitely gonna be a different experience there...

I wonder..if friends are really that important to guys..that he must and only can relax with them..and they must show how macho they are in front of them..must show the macho-ness by smoking,casually..omg..i hate those kinda guys..yet im living with one now..

He rather spend time with his friends and tell me he needs to relax..and when its time to work..he'll say he needs to work..needs to finish work..and he cant spend time with me..kewl!

Like now..i havent hear from him whole day coz he said he gotta work..and now i just got a feeling he went out with his friends and he;s scared to answer my call :)

Im smiling :) yet im hurt inside..maybe im that useless..all the guys ive been with ( and almost be with) has sucking problems..this is an asshole and tat is a jerk..

Im done..time to sleep..tmr swimming..there are always something nice to fall back on..like a decent lunch invitation from calvin the apartment chef..but im just too lazy to go to KLCC at 5pm...have this 5pm curfew inside me...cant fight the feelings that Im gonna be stuck in jam if i leave after 5pm...even on weekends:P

Oh...time's up for my facial...gotta go get my beautiful sleep..nitenite..

Hi Sze Yang,

I know this piece of mail will not reach you at any rate..but i still feel like sending it..coz i want you to know what's been happening to me lately..and perhaps..to tell you how much i miss you during your absence in this 6years..



I just re-read some of the old emails you sent me back then in 2000...reading them this time is weird..coz I dont feel sad as before..I still remember how bad i cried back then when i was reading your email..it just reminded me of how well u treated me back then..and how hurt you were when i left you for tat jerk..

Time flies..it has been like6years...since you left this world..I still recall myself being in disbelief when i called your house in 2004..just to find out you left in 2002..Your sisters too was in shock..they must be thinking which friend took so long to find out you left this world 2years later....so pathetic lameass of me :(

Im fine now, Sze Yang..im gotten over you...but somehow..i feel guilty for not being sad for u..for not crying for you anymore..am i bad?

Alot of things happened lately, my dear..

This 6 years has changed me into a totally different person...im no longer the lil innocent gal you once knew..Im getting more matured..though im still alil childish sometimes..cute as you always mentioned to me;)

Im currently in a 2-year-relationship that im not sure its heading anywhere..hahaha..i feel so bad for putting it this way..but sometimes i do think tat way,if not all the time..

And of course..in between they are lots of bumpy roads and obstacles..but yet we managed to overcome it and begin to go strong in a way..This guy is the kinda guy that i know is good enough to marry..but..his attitude stimes really gets on my nerve..sometimes i just wonder hw nice it would be if you're still around..hmm..dreams..i have plenty of them...but none will come true..

Getting sleepy here..maybe i'll type you something again..tmr?tata..

Hey hey..what a long week last week..got lots to blog here but just dun have the time to sit in front of the pc and type...finally ..the day (or rather the night)has come;)

Ok where should i start? Yea!! HOW YI!!! Well Im not so sure on how to spell his name..he's my swimming teacher's son...oh my god he's goddamn handsome!! Almost like Takeshi Kaneshiro..unbelievablely beautiful eyes..We ( the avid swimmers) just felt that he can join the CLEO Most Eligible Bachelor and win any time!! Guess wat? Last Sunday he taught us how to tow victims in cases of emergency/drowning or the like..oh my god..I just cant believe that finally we have the chance to get to know him better and get closer to him "physically"...i wish i can be the victim he used when he was trying to demo to us..:P

Ok enough about How Yi..Lets talk about...Daniel..

I heard some news about him today..His best friend called me just to say hi...and we ended up talkin about him..she was furious about this fella being overly devoted to the gf... it seems that this guy is no longer working and he's now the full time chauffer to this gf...wow..

Its something totally out of my imagination..Daniel who's once so ambitious now willing to succumb to his gf and driving her around..I seriously salute their true love..

The saddest part is..he's losing some of his very best friends due to this..its disheartening to hear someone you used to like become a robot lover..haha what a term..

Im glad that he has found his true love..after all this gal managed to change the whole of him..but i hope he will realise that life doesnt only revolve around him and the gal..life has much more in store for him..Daniel is not born into this world to live a simple life..he's someone very ambitious I once knew..someone who's making money with his own hands without anyone's help..Please Daniel..wake up before its too late..

Or..maybe i shouldnt be bothered at all..what's wrong with being nice and devoted to the gf?

10years back, if Im still 16yrs old..I might love to have a bf like tat..send me here and there..no need to work..spend time with me all the time...but reality is hitting me now..money is a nagging issue..cant live with it cant live without it...

I remembered I once had sucha bf..who's overly devoted to me..someone i can make him say a ball is square just to make me happy..hahhaha..so lame of me..but those kinda guys already extinct..and the one once make me happy..has gone to heaven 6yrs ago..

I tink i should thank Almidgety Simmon...if its not becoz of him..I wouldnt message Daniel to tell him Im worried about this fella's craziness after going out with him..Daniel wont be mad at me for goin out with him ...and stop contacting me at all.and met this lovely gf of his..everything seems to happen for a reason..so cool..its called fate and destiny..

I wish you well, Daniel Lu..