Hi Sze Yang,

I know this piece of mail will not reach you at any rate..but i still feel like sending it..coz i want you to know what's been happening to me lately..and perhaps..to tell you how much i miss you during your absence in this 6years..



I just re-read some of the old emails you sent me back then in 2000...reading them this time is weird..coz I dont feel sad as before..I still remember how bad i cried back then when i was reading your email..it just reminded me of how well u treated me back then..and how hurt you were when i left you for tat jerk..

Time flies..it has been like6years...since you left this world..I still recall myself being in disbelief when i called your house in 2004..just to find out you left in 2002..Your sisters too was in shock..they must be thinking which friend took so long to find out you left this world 2years later....so pathetic lameass of me :(

Im fine now, Sze Yang..im gotten over you...but somehow..i feel guilty for not being sad for u..for not crying for you anymore..am i bad?

Alot of things happened lately, my dear..

This 6 years has changed me into a totally different person...im no longer the lil innocent gal you once knew..Im getting more matured..though im still alil childish sometimes..cute as you always mentioned to me;)

Im currently in a 2-year-relationship that im not sure its heading anywhere..hahaha..i feel so bad for putting it this way..but sometimes i do think tat way,if not all the time..

And of course..in between they are lots of bumpy roads and obstacles..but yet we managed to overcome it and begin to go strong in a way..This guy is the kinda guy that i know is good enough to marry..but..his attitude stimes really gets on my nerve..sometimes i just wonder hw nice it would be if you're still around..hmm..dreams..i have plenty of them...but none will come true..

Getting sleepy here..maybe i'll type you something again..tmr?tata..