Disappointment....thats the only word to describe my feelings now..

Well..probably its not that bad after all..hey now i realise what does it mean by sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga......already had a bad day at work...now someone broke some bad news to me..saying tat danny is attached....hahahahahahahhahahahaha...

Yes im laughing and smiling while typing this...yohh..i feel so sad yet so helpless..I cant believe i just spoke about him..and now he;s gone for good..

Perhaps i shud be glad..that it marks the end of everything...those sleepless nites..those crying games..those screaming and cryin while driving..its over..totally..hmm..

By the way...I just went dinner with some fella..in my office..he made my day though yet again some assieholly said some rude remarks to me again...i cant believe it..Is he (the XO) really tat sickening or am i tat deserving of what he does to me? Tat goodfella (name is WOK) said he's daring enough to do tat to me coz im weak...or i appear to be soft i guess..sigh..

Its funny to see a guy who flirts with you and say bad words to you at another time..hahaha..he;s really acting along his moodswings..like a gal...sigh..he;s having PMS i guess:P

And the funniest part..im letting him do all that to me..hurt me with stupid remarks..ppl must be thinking tat i like him tat much to let him do tat to me..but in fact..i feel sad for him...just felt tat his family bckground has sth to do with that kinda attitude..poor guy...

Gosh..im thinking abt someone i shudnt again...god pls gimme strength to let go this D fella...pls......

Take k everyone..dun talk to me today or tmr..coz im just too sad to talk..if i do laugh or smile..it just wasnt real..its not me...

Heya everyone,

So so long never written any blog...ever since i come bck frm spore...tat was Sept 4th...

I luv singapore..miss that place actually..it sucha clean and beautiful country..a place where you don't have to worry abt ur open bag in the crowd..no worries walking alone at nite..you can feel that its safe there..

And the things...oh my god...they are so so cheap..well..if u earn SGD...imagine a shampoo that sells RM17 here are sold SGD8 there..ok you will say after the conversion rate its still expensive but hey..who needs conversion if im working in singapore? And a cup of starbucks cost SGD 5++...imagine SGD5++..walaoweh...no wonder everyone is holding a cup of starbucks for breakfast there..

Fine forget it..They deserve the good life coz they work much harder than Malaysians..and they stressed more than us..so forgive them, pls..

Again today THL spoke to me..haha its no big deal i noe..but im glad there are still some few good men ard at my working place..at least he made me realised that not all guys are bad..like the 168cm guy..ehem..

I began to feel slightly useless..and stressed lately..ive been goin bck late this week..wats wrong with me?

Yea..i was so much in pain last Wed that i took two ponstan painkillers to kill some deadly pain..never thought tat i would resort to painkillers as i dont even take panadols when im having fever..but im just too stressed to bear any more unnecessary pain..the painkillers made me dizzy..being blurrish the whole day till nite..sigh..
I was on MC and i cant go home due to my workload..damn it..

And abt 168...he got this condo that has the infinity pool ...wow..im so so interested in that pool..but that fella just wont let me noe his block number for me to sneak in and have a dip..urggghhhh!!!

Oh Yea...u guys noe i can swim already??Yahoo!!

Im extremely amazed by some guy's guts to prove his love despite religion differences...that fella fasted for one day...not sure if he did continue but that courage certainly wins my salute...I wish them happily ever after..:)

And danny..i tink i asked myself today.." hey don't you think you've given up on him?" I tink i did..I believe he has already done with me also;)
But i cannot resist missing him..its in me..part of me alr..let go the person ..but not the memory...just like SzeYang..:)

Oh yea...November coming soon...what shud i be getting for his bday? Huh..im so dumb..knowing that he wont get the present..unless i swallowed some 20 ponstans and bottoms-up a bottle of coke..mayb i stand for a chance;) Well, i tink my guts only allow me to swallow 2painkillers for no apparent reason(danny is not a good reason ,yea i noe)..nt 20 :P

Luv u n miss u Szeyang..wish u well..